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I really like “Timehop” and the “On this Day” apps. It’s always entertaining and sometimes surprising to see a snapshot of what I was up to several years ago.
19 was a dark time for me. I was getting ready to go into my sophomore year of college, I was living at home, my Mom was dealing with a debilitating illness (which was hard on the whole family), and I was also struggling through some serious addictions and pain of my own.
When I look back at the last decade as a whole, I can’t help but see how God laid a foundation over the years, and how each step had an influence on the next.
Of course, those are just the major highlights, but I know that there were even more moments and experiences that God used to draw me closer to Himself over the years.
Now here I am at 29… a married mother in ministry.
There’s a song by Gungor called “Beautiful Things“. The entire song moves me. The beginning of the first verse goes:
All this pain,
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way,
I wonder if this life could really change at all.
Then refrain and bridge articulate exactly what comes to mind when I reflect on the last decade:
You make beautiful things… out of the dust.
You make beautiful things…out of us.
You make me new, you are making me new.
While I may not be dealing with the same things I was ten years ago, I know God is still healing my heart and preparing me for even more adventures that will lead me even further out of the boat. More than anything I hope that I can continue to learn to give God one moment at a time, and to cling to His promise, “Behold, I make all things new” (Rev 21:5)